So welcome to two thousand and eleven everybody. Give yourself a hand. Once again we made it through 365 days worth of crap. So its been a long year, lets look back.
I guess to start with I should say that I no longer have a job. I myself find this terrifying. For the past 5 years my job has defined me. When people would say, " Hey Nik, what's up man?" All I could say in response was "Nothing really just working." But now there is no work. There is no getting up at 4am to be at work by 5. There is no going to bed a 9 or 10, and missing out on what all my friends are doing. Frankly it scares the crap out of me that i don't have something to do everyday. I'm a blank slate just waiting to be written on.
First off, I need a job!! maybe not something that has me working 60hr plus weeks, but something to pay the bills. Second I need to take a step back and really examine my life and what I want to do with it. Some close friends of mine who don't know each other recently both told me that i should be a teacher. A teacher, someone who molds the minds of this countries youth to do great things. Scary thought to me.
Whatever it is I'm supposed to do I hope that God will lead me into a place that I need to be.
That brings up something else. In the past year I have really gotten away from God. I try to rely on myself rather than believe in God and believe he has something for me.
In the next year I want to really get back to him. Get back to putting my faith in God that he will make things good for me. I want to get involved too. My church has always been a huge part of my life and for the past year I have gotten away from it. I want to get back in there. I want to immerse back into the programs and be a leader to younger college students.
Well sorry my thoughts are so random, but hey there mine and if you are reading this I don't care what you think. Well good night, good luck, and above all else trust in GOD.-PEACE
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